Moving to a new state of mind.

I hate moving! I just wanted to get that out there, but I don't feel any better about it. I have been moving for the last month. It is horrible - the chaos & unruly laundry hampers everywhere.

My life is a big ball of stress and I have fallen into a stress-induced walking-coma. I'm here, the lights are on, but no one is answering the freakin' doorbell. The worst part is that I am in the attic, looking out the window wondering what's going on & why I can't find the door. Its hard to explain, especially since I'm not sure what is going on - its not an emotional roller-coaster, its an emotional blender. I have feelings a'la baby food.

Too many analogies? Maybe. But its important for me to try and explain the inexplicable- my mind.

"Chaos"

chaos is apparent disorder is it apparent that life follows this logic how far do we have to go before we lose sight of where we started it is simple to say that you do not understand and just go on your way but to stop and think to break something apart and really think breaking something down does not mean that you have to break it or tear it apart just stop a think thank chaos for being the catalysis for life the beginning of life when we are all too young to understand the gift that we are given and we tear it apart just stop and think we live and we die but we do not get to go back life gets disorganized it gets messy we get messy we can learn and grow and embrace the chaos in our lives if we stop and think chaos is apparent disorder but when we stop and think we discover that chaos is simply the beginning

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Chaos