Hate

I am angry with myself.
It's more of a habit.

Image by Jim Blob Blann

Why not just blame yourself?
It seams like the thing to do.

Hurting yourself is easy,
When there is no one to stop
Those awful things you say
To yourself.

I remind myself that I am loved;
That must mean that I am worth loving,
                                                        Right?
There is something that nags at my soul.

Hating others is frowned upon, but
Hating yourself is the thing to do.
Everyone says they wish they were
Something else, someone else.

I look in the mirror and wish
That I could see me, instead of
Seeing myself through the eyes of
Others - Others that hate.

Hating others is frowned upon, but
Hating differences is the thing to do.
I am different, can you love me?
I blame myself for not being the same.

"Thinking"

I think in a straight line and that worries me because you cannot love that way if you look close enough you will see that love has more than straight lines it worries me that i will not be able to love well when i think straight that might be a bigger problem if i was busy thinking i'm not so i guess that everything will be okay

"New Year, New Joy: 1/1/11"

A new year means new joys.
Another 365 days to enjoy your life.
A new year for new idea,
  new mistakes and new lessons learned.

Remember the lessons, but 

  forget the mistakes.
Every day is precious and this
  is worth thinking about regularly.
Contemplate life and all the wonderful
  things that you can do with it.
Make sure that the people you love
  know it.
Show your joy to the world,
  and aways smile.

Happy New Year, from our family to you and your family!

"A girl"

Once upon a time...
There was a girl who was perfect and happy in her own little world,
until the day when someone told her that she wasn't good enough.
She learned an ugly lie that day; what people say matters.
The truth?
What people say can hurt, scar, damage, and destroy a beautiful soul.

This little girl grew into a torn adult, still beautiful on the inside
but too sad to show the world.
Time after time people told her and showed her that she wasn't good enough.
She grew up in a harsh world;
a world that has evolved into a hateful place for her.
She was hurt, scarred, damaged, and she felt destroyed,
until one day when she looked into a mirror and saw
the beautiful woman she had become.

This girl realized that all of those hateful words were a lie
and only fear reflected from all those people.
She started to hear more of what those people said,
they tore down what was beautiful and built up the ugly.
Out of the ignorance of their own hate, they showed her the dark lie.

As she saw the truth, she noticed that there were others.
People that were more like her. Beautiful on the inside.
Now she heard the beauty that came from these angels.
They spoke of how lovely she is and how much they value her.
It was only after she saw her own beauty and worth, that
she heard the words of those that mattered.

We do live in a beautiful world, full of beautiful people.
Remember to look for your beauty and choose your words carefully,
because words can
hurt or heal, scar or redeem, damage or built, destroy or create.