“Untitled”

Bitter ice forms on my heart

It’s been Broken Used Beaten

I know not your love

Never will I know your embrace

I’ve seen hope

It glitters in the sun

But it crashes into you

I’m afraid to show my heart

Frozen in time

Terrified that you might 

Hold the key

I know not your love

Yet your heat roars

Melting my heart

Ice falls away

But it crashes to the ground

You know my love

Yet it’s not enough

I am not broken

But I am not whole

I am chaos 

Eternal sunlight

Farther away I slip

A dream world of love

Hating my glances

They give me away

I do not love in a traditional way

I am driven by a primal instinct

Love. 

Confusion sets in

I am covered

Admission of this would break us

Continuing in our dance

It’s the only thing I know

If I could get it out

I would soar above

Hope would rain from the sky

My heart cannot break again

I could never take the pain

But I put myself in harms way 

And hope to fall in love

“Sweet Sorrow”

Sweet sorrow
         Knowing
    Tomorrow
Holding your heart
   is like bottling sunlight
Sweet sorrow
         Knowing
     Today
Loving your soul
   is like taming a wild beast

"How do I love you"

How do I love you?
With mind,
With heart,
With body,
With soul.
I love you with
everything that I have. 

“My soul”

Look into my soul

You will see the truth

My love, my joy, my life

Look into my soul

You will see my truth

My daughter, my friends, my lover

Look into my soul

You will see what tomorrow will bring

My promise to you

That I will always love you

Even after the passion is gone

Look into my soul

And see me

“Your eyes”

You memorized my face 

I memorized your eyes

The way the looked at me

And saw me, the real me

I felt the love in those eyes

Long before the words came

“Unrequited love”

Waiting wishing dreaming

Sinking deep into my thoughts

of you

Turned to the sky for answers

Unrequited love here on earth

Hearts beat together

Straining with each pump

How can you just stand there

Unaware unawakened unconscious

Not knowing of my love

And how deep it grows

for you 

“Becomes”

My heart flutters with anticipation

Arms locked in deep embrace 

One becomes two 

Becomes one

Both locked in loving acceptance

Body against body

One becomes two

Becomes one

Sweet music from parted lips

Sings out into the night

One becomes two

Becomes one

Our souls intertwined 

Our hearts beat in synchronicity

One becomes two

Becomes one

Looking into your eyes

I am home

One becomes two

Becomes one 

“Melody”

Listening to your melody

Your heart beating with mine

Time stand still as I sink in

Drifting away through space

My soul craves for more

Your song envelopes me

The room fades away

I am transported to you

The music brings me 

Right back to you

"Flying"

Flying freely through the sky
I stretch my wings
Gliding among the clouds

I breathe deeply

Diving wildly through the ocean
I sink beneath the waves
Splashing and diving again

I come up for air

I am free
I am happy

“An ode to when I was happy”

An ode to when I was happy

To my smile, how I miss thee

To my laugh, your sound is like music

Oh, forget the sadness that creeps in

and brings the floods

Forget the anger that creeps across my vains

To my smile, how beautiful you are

To my laugh, you bring joy to those around

Oh, forget the disappointment that spreads throughout my soul

My smile will return, as will my laugh

As soon as my heart heals

“You”

Listening to your melody

Your heart beating with mine

Time stand still as I sink in

Drifting away through space

My soul craves for more

Your song envelopes me

The room fades away

I am transported to you

The music brings me 

Right back to you

“Lost”

My heart tell me what my brain cannot comprehend. I fall deep into your eyes. I am lost. A mixture of loving and vile emotions. I am forgiving of your past but your future looms like a starless night. I cling to your heart. I must not give up. I am lost. It has always been about what will happen. Do I forget what is happening? I am lost. I must not forget. I must remember. Live in the present, I whisper to myself. But I am lost. Lost in feeling. Whatever happens I know what we had. It was beautiful and it will never die. Lost in the memories of yesterday. I am lost. 

“Transparent”

Her skin was transparent 

And she kept all her secrets safe

Locked away in her heart

She knew that if she let them out

The world would change

For her at least

She was quiet and calm

Kept her heart away

From those who would break it

She knew that it was fragile

Her heart because of what it held

Love and fear intertwining  

She kept her love

Far away from the world

And became jaded

“Like water”

Your eyes like water

      Refresh my soul

           I dive in

               I let go

I swim in the deep pools

       As my body dances in the waves

But it’s your eyes

       That hold me still

            I let myself free

                 I let myself go

My body responds in time

        As I swim in the deep pools

“Darkness”

Deep down 

the darkness goes

Midnight black 

Below everything 

beautiful and bright

It ebbs and flows

Entering my soul

I turn towards you

an empty hand

I reach and reach

then I just fall

I scratch at the walls

in the never-ending 

tumble head-over-feet

“Sun”

I turn my face towards you, my sun

My glorious light burning bright

I feel your warmth radiant throughout my body

It touches my soul and causes it to melt

You burn so pure and so very bright

I sometimes get lost in the glow

But I dance and I celebrate inside of your warmth

It brings me the simplest of joys

“Broken hearted”

Million pieces shatter to the ground

A broke heart that can take no more

I try to pick up the pieces but they fall

Like grains of sand and scatter to the wind

I am empty again

Incomplete 

“I can’t write”

I can’t write right now.
I don’t have the time.
My child is wanting
And dinner is in the oven.

I can’t write right now.
I don’t have the energy.
My life is busy, you see,
And I am exhausted by now.

I can’t write right now.
I don’t have any ideas.
My brain is sidetracked
And creativity would overload it.

I can’t write right now.
I don’t have the words.
My fingers are pained
And cannot put thought to paper.